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“I fucked up, didn’t I?”
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Getting Confused
Too much drinking has been happening. I can feel it affecting my mood. Will explain why I’ve been drinking so much in the next day or so.
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Getting Busy
I’ve been stacking my dance card and I’m far too exhausted to do any of this shit at the moment. Planning on having a significantly larger update within a day or two.
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Breakthrough
Not smoking has created other voids in my life. Consider that I smoked quick (all my friends can attest I did it faster than them) and spent an average of 7 minutes on my fancy, native american cigarettes. I was doing a little under a pack a day, so let’s say 18 cigarettes x 7 […]
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Closing In
I am at the precipice of a couple different things. I have a project I need to finish from my business that’s closing, but it’s still a decent amount of work left to do. I have been trying to make my new company work at a more even-keeled pace but keep getting fraught with old […]
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Sanctimonious Twat
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Regrets & Recovery
I woke up feeling ok. I had apparently texted a lot of people late last night. Don’t know what I was hoping to accomplish but the embarrassment certainly kicked in as I got a series of messages strolling in throughout the day. So I stayed in bed and just napped the whole afternoon away. My […]
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Trying Going Out Again
Ended up meeting a pretty nice person on a dating app. We met up at an event downtown, had a few beers, then back to my office for tequila. We had lots of drinks, nothing much happened and that’s alright. I’m down to make some friends along the way. But I’m really feeling the drinking. […]
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Today is the Day
Well, I fucking did it. At the time of writing this, I haven’t smoked a cigarette or done any nicotine in about 20 hours. It feels fucking great. I used the way I’ve used in the past to stop smoking which is reading Alan Carr’s “The Easy Way to Stop Smoking” and I feel like […]
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No Time to Recover
Ate like shit, did no exercise, was dangerously low on serotonin, and had to play a show. The hangover wasn’t particularly strong as the mushrooms stopped me drinking pretty early in the evening. Will make an attempt to digest everything and blurt it out tomorrow.
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Lotsa Drugs
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Bewildered & Bemused
As I make my transition from a failed business I invested so much into to a business I turned down, I find the humility somewhat crushing. The month is ending and my dance card is nearly fucking full for the remainder of the month despite not having enough money to pay my bills… yet. This […]
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Another Rest Day
The notion of a “rest day” seems so counterintuitive to me. It was too many rest days that got me into this situation in the first place, so it’s hard to wrap my head around this concept that rest actually aids in a healthy lifestyle. I learned about the benefits of Rest Day from ye […]
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Eating Habits
I’m currently a fat guy, as the title to this blog implies. I hate my body. I get uncomfortable catching glimpses of myself in the mirror. I’m pretty uncomfortable having sex with all my clothes off. To bypass my body insecurity, alcohol has always been a staple. It also “makes me” charismatic enough to get […]
