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Fucking On
I started today off with my primary partner coming by after she was done with work. We laid in bed and cuddled up a lot and talked. After some time we begin to fool around. For the first time in her adult life, I gave her her first sober orgasm — from another person, that […]
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Fucking Off
I got drunk tonight. There was a show I had to play that I thought was supposed to be cancelled. I managed to get through it with the help of a lot of booze. I messaged oriole things I shouldn’t have texted and ate shit that I really shouldn’t have eaten. Alcohol leads to awful […]
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The “New” Path Forward
I firmly feel like I just chose the “intermediate” level trail on life. There’s more of an incline, some rock faces to scale, but it’s doable with some effort. I had been on the beginner trail for so long that this average level of effort is going to feel like a lot. The beginner trail […]
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Open ‘er Up!
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90lbs of Shit in a 10lb Sack
This damn week is going by far too quick. I have a shitload of priorities that run me clear through the weekend. Fuck me I’m going to need some help getting this shit done.
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Schedule Yo Yo
I didn’t sleep last night. Other than the long nap, I’m not sure why. I have a highly pressing data migration task as my last duties before abandoning my old company for good. It’s a bittersweet thing. I’m going to miss my old business partner a lot. He makes me laugh very, very hard, I […]
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Same Olde New Day
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Starting or Ending?
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Fuck This is Hard
Since quitting smoking, today was the hardest day to date. I know that I have recently had some issues that would generally make me or any normal person sad (see some prior articles about what happened), but there was an extra, nefarious twinge. Something all to underreported is the effect nicotine has on mental health, […]
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Punishment & Refocusing
It’s sad losing a relationship. I lost the same one twice in one month. For that I feel pretty impressed with myself. Both times were due to something I did trying to focus on my mental health. Fuck me. How in the hell do other people manage mental health and trying to live life? I […]
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Stopped on My Behalf
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Cannot Stop Myself
This day started off pretty great. A little bit of spring in my step, a great visit from my friendly ex, and the pining of my not-so-friendly ex. Work duties had started to pile up, but they seemed attainable and reasonable. So I slogged through my day, spending some time at the office, then eventually […]
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It’s Time?
I’ve been feeling oddly down despite seeming to be really nailing dating, sex, and some other things that I’ve been working to wrangle. Somehow I’m unhappy as shit about all of this. I feel run-down and feel exhausted more than usual. This is a familiar exhaustion, however having some physical improvements it doesn’t feel quite […]
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Need to Pivot
I’ve been going back and reviewing these articles as I plan to launch this blog to the world. I’m a bit disgusted at how much I’ve allowed interpersonal relationships to skew this journey that I’m on. I saw my most recent ex again today. She literally drives me to drink, but there’s still some strange, […]
